I have been getting quite a few questions of 'what happened' to me on FB and the reasoning behind why I deleted some of you off my FB account. I want to give you an explanation, so here goes...
If you've been following my blog you know that I've had ED flare-ups the past couple of weeks. After one very bad flare up I decided that FB may be a little bit of a trigger for my ED. I want to assure you all that it was nothing that anyone said, and nothing that anyone did. I think you are all lovely people, and I'm so sorry if I upset anyone.
I started noticing a trend of negativity within myself that was somewhat triggering my ED. I realized that I spent way too much time on FB and on WB/TN-- observing other people's lives, listening to other people's rants. And I didn't like how it was affecting me.
So, I decided to take matters into my own hands. I basically went on a deleting spree to lessen my self-produced FB anxiety. I deleted almost everyone I knew off WB/TN (not in real life), and I also deleted WB/TN.
Now, I've actually decided to de-activate my FB account for a while so that I can focus on my thesis and other things.
I just wanted to let you all know that I'm OK, and to apologize for upsetting anyone over getting deleted. I really meant no harm by it, and it absolutely wasn't personal. It was just one of those things that I had to do for myself.
Right now I want to experience a lot more real life than online life. I mean it when I say that I will miss knowing what's going on in your lives. But, I have to focus on myself and other things right now, and it's very difficult for me to do that while I'm on FB constantly.
That being said, I will still keep up with my blog, as it is a positive form of self expression. And if I stopped following your blog it's not because I was offended by what you wrote or anything like that. I just decided to keep most of the blogs that I follow to ED recovery/health/fashion related ones, etc.
Again, I really hope that I didn't upset anyone, as it was definitely not my goal.
Thank you for your sweet messages. :)
Love,
Yasi
I believe that what you are doing is a right thing for yourself.
ReplyDeleteSometimes we do things that other people don't understand and they get upset. They think it is something they may have done to you. When in reality, it is not exactly about what they have done, but you learn something from that, and realize it is not healthy for you.
I have done that in the past; I have cut some of my friends out of my life because I felt their behaviors were not helping me in my recovery (I.E. drama). They did get angry at me and thought I was doing it out of spite. Really, it was not. I had to do it for myself. They probably, to this day, still don't understand that.
I guess my point of this rambling is that you have to take care of yourself first even if other people don't quite understand what is going on.
Hugs.
Good choice! It's often very hard to take focus on yourself when anorexia and being a people pleaser seem to often go hand in hand. Great job!!
ReplyDeleteI have a hard time doing this because I'm so afraid of losing friends....So far I've moved 7 times....And most "friends" don't stay..
There is so much I am learning from you and so many others on here!! Thank you!
My dear, I hope that you're doing okay these days. It sounds like this is a good thing for you... Please know that we're all here for you should you ever need anything.
ReplyDeletexo Josie
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