Thank you everyone for your kind comments about my last post. I was feeling so intensely overwhelmed. I cried for 3 hours straight!!! And then I took a nap and woke up and felt better.
J and I resolved our issue that day, and my mom called me later in the night and our conversation was normal to good.
As for the body issues, they are still there. I really do think I that want to slim down a couple of pounds for the wedding because I just don't feel like I look like myself. I'm not starving myself at all. I'm just going to continue going to the gym and I'm going to watch my portion sizes.
It's just that if there's one day that you want to look and feel your best it's your wedding day. And if being a couple of pounds thinner will make me feel better then I think that's ok.
I realize that this looks like a slippery slope. But I really need to do this for my own sanity in the next two months. J knows that I'm doing it and we're discussing it and he's watching me.
I kind of feel like I'm letting you guys down a bit. But as I said before, this is going to be the most captured day of my life and I just want to feel like myself.
The good news is that during this transformation I have learned how to eat really well and have learned to eat nutritious food (instead of keeping myself functioning with carbs!).
Again, thank you for all of your kind words. They mean the world to me.