Having recently moved to the colder side of Michigan, I have found myself to be constantly even colder than I usually am. I spend a lot of my day looking like this:
And when that blanket action isn't enough, I take it a step further, and look like this:
^This is the level of coldness I am at while I'm typing right now.^
My point is that I can handle being cold; I can pile on the sweaters, walk around with a blanket, or even turn up the heat. (I'm trying to control the latter option because if it were up to me I'd have the thermostat at 78 degrees year-round. Sure, the heat bill would be $200/month, but I'd be warm. =P )
But a feeling that I can't handle is the feeling that I had at the gym last Saturday-- the uncontrollable itching I got from working myself into an ED frenzy.
What's interesting is that even when I'd calmed myself down, I gave myself a different kind of anxiety. I was scared that now every time I go to the gym I would work myself up, start itching like crazy, and have to leave.
I was afraid that I would never be able to work out again.
I know. Dramatic much?
So, I skipped going back to the gym until yesterday. But, I said what the hell; I won't know until I try again. And so I went back to the gym yesterday. And.....
I had a great workout! No itching! No anxiety!
I cannot tell you how relieved I am that I was able to work out like 'normal'. It's a blessing.