Having recently moved to the colder side of Michigan, I have found myself to be constantly even colder than I usually am. I spend a lot of my day looking like this:
And when that blanket action isn't enough, I take it a step further, and look like this:
^This is the level of coldness I am at while I'm typing right now.^
Hehe.
My point is that I can handle being cold; I can pile on the sweaters, walk around with a blanket, or even turn up the heat. (I'm trying to control the latter option because if it were up to me I'd have the thermostat at 78 degrees year-round. Sure, the heat bill would be $200/month, but I'd be warm. =P )
But a feeling that I can't handle is the feeling that I had at the gym last Saturday-- the uncontrollable itching I got from working myself into an ED frenzy.
What's interesting is that even when I'd calmed myself down, I gave myself a different kind of anxiety. I was scared that now every time I go to the gym I would work myself up, start itching like crazy, and have to leave.
I was afraid that I would never be able to work out again.
I know. Dramatic much?
So, I skipped going back to the gym until yesterday. But, I said what the hell; I won't know until I try again. And so I went back to the gym yesterday. And.....
I had a great workout! No itching! No anxiety!
YaaaaAAaaaaaAAAaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyYYYYyyy!!!!
I cannot tell you how relieved I am that I was able to work out like 'normal'. It's a blessing.
<3
Hey :)
ReplyDeleteToday I started reading the book "unbearable lightness" by Portia De Rossi after seeing her on Oprah yesterday. I don't have ED but have my own ups and downs with scale, calories, mirror, and excessive workout which can be very frustrating time to time. I can relate to her story and has found the book to be a very emotional read. u may find it interesting too.
Ania,
ReplyDeleteThank you for the info about the book! I actually saw Portia's segment on youtube. It sounds like a great book, and I'm considering buying it. :)
Yay for no itching!
ReplyDeleteNow, what I really wanna know is this:
Is a fashion-loving gal like you willing to go for the snuggie or maybe the slanket?
Srsly. Don't know how you cope with the cold.
I am not happy with today's first touch of winter ... a cold front. It was 69 at one point today!
Peace and Blessings from your South Florida reader,
Missy
PS -- You look like some sort of winter-eskimo-beautiful fairy (0:
Missy- You are too cute!
ReplyDeleteTo answer your question, I do have a snuggie! It's a leopard print one that my mom got for me last year. However, J *hates* it! He thinks it's a ridiculous 'backwards robe'. Haha! (It really is.)
Also, it's not very thick. So even with the snuggie I get cold. So, ever since getting married we've gotten really nice thicker blankets and I wrap up in those instead (Picture, above.)
P.S. I don't know how I deal with the cold either. But I gotta tell ya, nothing beats the beautiful snow in the holiday season. =)